why are we blogging?

lately, we haven't been producing as much content for moons en masse as we want to be. alex went full-time with his own company two months ago, so i am supporting him on my days off from my job and he is jumping with both feet into the entrepreneurial pool. it's more important for us to put our efforts toward his work, which will generate income, than for us to focus on producing stuff for moons. all things come in seasons, and right now moons is kind of in an "off-season" and we just have to accept that - even if it's not necessarily the reality either of us want. but, with that being said, there's also a risk that i will lose the inspiration and motivation to continue these channels - and i certainly don't want that because i absolutely love recording our life together here on this blog (and bothering alex every other day about making another youtube video). so, i was inspired recently to revisit this bigger question: what are we even doing here, and why?

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i listened to an episode of the podcast the good life project with johnathan fields where he interviews scotty johnson. at the end of every episode, johnathan asks his guests one question: "if i offer up the phrase 'to live a good life' what does that mean to you?" this was scotty's answer.

"to take the time to question what matters to you, and to have the courage to follow the convictions of the answer to that question."

when i heard this, i realized two things. first, we haven't really directly addressed our mission with this blog in a long time. second, this really is our mission. we write about and document how we are taking the time to question what really matters to us, and how we are taking actions based on the answers we discover. it's our real-time journey into consciousness, and into manifesting a life filled with passion and mission. we are challenging ourselves every day to be awake, excited, and purposeful. to dream big even when those dreams feel impossible, because taking a risk to live our dreams is better than a life filled with 'what ifs' - even on days when we feel too discouraged to even want to try (there are plenty of these days).

i feel like, as creatives, this constant process of questioning and discovery never really stops. you're always fine-tuning your favorite ideas, or building on them and improving them. this is especially true when the project is already underway. this lesson of clarity following action is one that continues to ring true again and again. you can't really improve something until you're already doing it, because if you're not doing it then how can you learn?

what i consistently return to as i scroll through our posts from the past year and a half is how grateful i am that we started this project. without this blog, we never would have started to ask ourselves the hard questions. we certainly wouldn't be where we are today, with the big dreams and goals that we have. we wouldn't be nearly as connected to each other as one unit. it is this space and these dreams that unite us more than anything, and i can't wait to see what we build as a team. and i truly believe that we never would have arrived here without alex's suggestion to start this blog in november 2016.

so with that is a promise to post on here as much as we can. i don’t know what that really looks like, but we are also doing a ton of behind-the-scenes work. we want to publish a zine and start a podcast, along with a few other things. we are challenging ourselves to reach further and discover more, and we shouldn’t be punishing ourselves for that just because it’s taking some time away from the spaces we’ve already created. on top of that, one of my goals is to keep learning. i want to keep reading and listening and learning so that hopefully one day i will be able to share what i have learned with others. but that takes time.

we have so many goals, and it's really hard to continue to make tiny motions when all you really want is one big manifesting sweep that will leave you with all the things you wanted, shiny and perfect and ready. and every day, i have to continually break myself away from wanting that when i know logically that's never how life works. i spend my days questioning my priorities on both a long-term and short-term level, and that determines what i do with my time. we've been trying to get outside and enjoy the summer, so things like writing and filming just have to take a backseat so we can enjoy what precious time we do have together at the lake, or on our bikes. but sometimes, a few episodes of tv after long day is okay too. my foot is almost always on the gas pedal, it's just sometimes the acceleration is less than others. and often, it's when we take our foot off the pedal that the inspiration for something truly amazing comes. i do think that this space will be less of a priority as we try to start more tangible projects, but i hope that with the cooler weather coming i will be able to keep up on this space more than i have this summer.