fill up our cup: entry 5

the holidays are now in full swing. and though this is normally where couples & family see each other more, it’s unfortunately quite the opposite in our house. this time of year is when hannah and i’s schedule gets crazy, as the holidays are retail’s bread & butter. so she ends up pulling a lot more hours at work, working longer days, and putting together more events to make things run smoothly.  

great for them. not great for me. 

to give you some perspective, this weekend is basically the last full day I’ll have with her until january. crazy, right? 

alex: thus, the thing that giving me energy this week is her, which isn’t any different than other weeks. 

but as the holidays are here now & there are more & more nights wherein she gets home around 10, i’m amazed by her abilities to hold space for me even when she gets home, running on fumes. she still wants to hear my stories, my complaints, my crazy ideas for abstract art projects. and then on the few moments she’s got to relax & recharge, she’s still, by my side, ready to make more. 

i’m proud of her. i’m amazed by her. 

i’m lucky to have her. 

she’s a golden creature. 

hannah: as alex said, we are now in a month where time together will be few and far between. this last week we had the opportunity to make a few dinners together, but there was something more special about these dinners than usual. alex always helps me in the kitchen, but this last week he’s been really excited about cooking - he helped me pick recipes, and took charge of many more tasks than usual. the fact that he was excited and wanted to participate more deeply than usual was really incredible. it made cooking more fun and less like a chore, and he was more grateful for the meals we created and how delicious everything turned out. cooking became a bonding experience. i am definitely looking forward to cooking more together in this mindset, even if the dinners will be fewer and farther between than we’d both like.