fill up our cup: entry three

we're a bit late this week. but here it is. some things that we're into right now.

alex: right now, social media feels a bit like a poison that i’m forced to take down, not unlike cough syrup when i was little boy. similarly both will help me, but it doesn’t change the way I feel about it. that feeling for the most part is anger.

why am i foolish enough to continue to put myself in a position of agitation and burn-out?

though it often feels like it, this problem is not without hope.

i came across this article again, after a year or two away, and found it incredibly insightful for my current mood and my positioning on the climate of social media. it's called 'i used to be human'. check it out. it's a pretty long article.

so here's an audio version too. 

this podcast, also from awhile ago: branden harvey's interview with aaron draplin called creating randomness & mystery.

my consensus, i need to relax. plain and simple. 

hannah: my tiny family has been my rock this last week. it has been quite the exhausting, long week that comes with the holiday season. but after a long day, when i feel most grumpy and upset, alex and lu were always there to help. to make me smile, give me a snuggle, and remind me what really matters. one night alex and i watched the movie her, and this feeling of utter gratitude and happiness just overcame me. i am so lucky to know that every day, I have someone to greet. to hug. to laugh with and play with and eat with. then the other night lu and i were playing with catnip and she was just making me laugh so hard. watching and laughing and being with her made me so present in the moment. they both are a constant source of gratitude and grounding and so many times this week i have thought about what my life would be like without them, and i truly can’t and won’t imagine such a reality. time with them will always fill me up with joy and goodness, and for that i am forever grateful to have them beside me in life.